overwhelming sadness
Its been quite a day, i do not know from where it really started but the overcoming sadness is compelled against me to make me feel worried about certain things in life, which at first I didn't held so close to me. But as those things keep on going away from me, I realize How much I miss them, to care for something and giving it all , is all that anybody wants and so to me not able to do this has been a disaster it seems, i feel overwhelmed by my failure. I hope they are alright , for I wish nothing else but their well-being, this has been torturous event, at first I thought was helping them but soon it grew upon me , that it is just me who care for them, a society in a whole , doesn't bother at all. Wish I had been around much more groomed society which had know what it is to love. I cannot see them die around me , fighting for little things which the world could provide so easily.
Life is so fragile, one bad things and it shatters into pieces and it takes lot of work to get it glued back together , but it doesn't really look the same anymore. we seek so many things outside of us , in our friends, in the society we try to get their attention by placing ourselves as superior like they want us to be, it is a flawed thing to do, they do no accept us for what we are and we still just put ourselves at their mercy.
I wish to die after doing something, although i do feel brittle ;but still i dont want to be born again, and go through these things all over again, I want this cycle to end, I cant take it; these feelings are overpowering my inherent self. For that I will do whatever it takes from now on, nothing in life except love really matters to me. Although many people throw around the word 'Love' a lot, without understanding its meaning, but I guess I have finally understood it. It is giving without expectations in return , and it grows so deep it seems that you ignore all the bad things about them and even a little scratch that happens to them is enough to make you depressed to the core of yourself. I feel it, perhaps this is what is worrying me, I care for them, people might say otherwise but I feel them, their unsaid laughter, fear, sadnesss; I understand them. well, this too worries me, if they go anywhere else who will understand their unsaid things. They dont say a lot , but their their eyes speak the truth and that truth draws you close, I feel them but I know I am weak, I dont want to be weak; I will do whatever it takes, I dont want to be like this anymore.
Its been quite a day, i do not know from where it really started but the overcoming sadness is compelled against me to make me feel worried about certain things in life, which at first I didn't held so close to me. But as those things keep on going away from me, I realize How much I miss them, to care for something and giving it all , is all that anybody wants and so to me not able to do this has been a disaster it seems, i feel overwhelmed by my failure. I hope they are alright , for I wish nothing else but their well-being, this has been torturous event, at first I thought was helping them but soon it grew upon me , that it is just me who care for them, a society in a whole , doesn't bother at all. Wish I had been around much more groomed society which had know what it is to love. I cannot see them die around me , fighting for little things which the world could provide so easily.
Life is so fragile, one bad things and it shatters into pieces and it takes lot of work to get it glued back together , but it doesn't really look the same anymore. we seek so many things outside of us , in our friends, in the society we try to get their attention by placing ourselves as superior like they want us to be, it is a flawed thing to do, they do no accept us for what we are and we still just put ourselves at their mercy.
I wish to die after doing something, although i do feel brittle ;but still i dont want to be born again, and go through these things all over again, I want this cycle to end, I cant take it; these feelings are overpowering my inherent self. For that I will do whatever it takes from now on, nothing in life except love really matters to me. Although many people throw around the word 'Love' a lot, without understanding its meaning, but I guess I have finally understood it. It is giving without expectations in return , and it grows so deep it seems that you ignore all the bad things about them and even a little scratch that happens to them is enough to make you depressed to the core of yourself. I feel it, perhaps this is what is worrying me, I care for them, people might say otherwise but I feel them, their unsaid laughter, fear, sadnesss; I understand them. well, this too worries me, if they go anywhere else who will understand their unsaid things. They dont say a lot , but their their eyes speak the truth and that truth draws you close, I feel them but I know I am weak, I dont want to be weak; I will do whatever it takes, I dont want to be like this anymore.
